No one loves me like you do..

No one loves me like you do

I’ve never felt like this

You please me in so many ways,

No one understands me like you do

You see me deep inside

You choose to overlook my flaws,

The ones I try to hide.

You’re amazing, and you’re mine!

i just wanna say I love you..

:-)

My Year in 2010

00:05am, i landed in Malaysia... phew, finally i smell home... it had been a long and stressful month before i could grasp peacefulness again... heart rejoices, off to church with familia.. wonderful service to start the year..

11^th jan, my heart was given away again..how brave i was.. a perfect stranger! Life was good after that.. 21^st feb, i fell back from heaven to hell.. damn, the feeling was disgusting.. i was so lost in class, so lost in love.. L and parasite was the subject i hated most followed by microbiology.. i can nvr digest it till this very day...

Results were super sucky and i was least bothered.. accompanied by fights which was my deal meal.. march 24^th, my sweetheart left home, left me shattered with some unknown strangers, how lonely i was from then onwards my life took a 180 degree turn.. my world was my beautiful four walls, i found peace in it..my century, there it was...

12^th june, i eagerly waited... i was in paradise... the love of my heart, i missed him oh so crazy.. he was my sweetheart, my best mate, my best buddy, a frend i will never wanna lose.. finals clashed, somehow i coped.. baksoswil iv ismki was a total torture.. 4 days were like four years..

14^th july, i was back in heaven to be with my familia once again.. and this time, i nvr wanted to return.. my bed was true heaven, mummy’s cooking was all i craved for.. i realised , i had missed home so dearly.. 18^th august, i knew i was abt to face my enemies once again. This time i had decided to move away from dispute.

Musculoskeleton was a nightmare.. how i ran to the lab every second i had the chance.. my nights, were all abt bones and bones only it was.. the thought of 9sks down the drain sent shivers down my spine.. hw evil it was..!! juniors came. It took me back down memory lane when i came as a junior and obstacles i went through..it was hard..

I was counting my days to go back to my motherland.. so it came, 3^rd September.. i was once again in paradise.. a lot of things had happened within the days, and so i needed a break from all of it.. i did soul searching.. and things were nvr to be the same again.. 22^nd September, i moved out..i was to live with these housemates, 4 legged creatures and so peaceful it was.. happiness filled my soul once again..

I was looking forward for 29^th oct.. so it came.. i was the happiest girl ever.. and i remembered he was the best for me.. i missed him dearly over the past few months.. the moments i had can nvr be forgotten.. and memories of me and you lingers on.. i realised i am only beautiful because you loved me sincerely..

Loneliness striked again on the 21^st November.. i nvr wanted it to come to an end.. i swear my heart cried.. how painful it was.. i had to be strong . i faced every day after that with strength.. my friends were my pillars... some stood my be and i always had someone to lean on.. exams came and went.. its all part and parcel of a medical students life..

Now, i am in the face of my finals ..and looking forward for the 23^rd of December.. to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ and to be with my loved ones once again..

I dont wanna go back !

In less then 24 hrs time, i will be leaving for tat stupid horrible place where i see ugly creatures around me again! DAMN! i dont wanna go back.

can someone please come and save me.. where is my prince. i need my prince to come save me.

the thought of going back there is terrifying me. i cant take this.

i might break down any moment.

i have freedom..but wats the point. life's just gonna suck to the core.

its back to square one.

walking to campus daily, laundry, food, mates, studies, classes, examzz!

please Mr time, just move slowly , only for today.

If U're in a relationship, married or none, read this. U'll know why at the end.

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

Not at peace.

a lot of stuffs are running thru my mind right now.

first i hv the hse issue to settle.

second, my results.

third, the tiredness

fourth, the subject with 9sks.

fifth, wil miss home

sixth, wil miss holidays

seventh, miss him

eighth, stress mood ON!

ninth, fucked up friends

tenth, loneliness

and the list goes on and on...

i am breaking down and i do not knw wat to do.

i am in need of help.

Confusion Triggers

I have a boyfriend at this moment, and we are more than 6 months already. Earlier days, I am very confident that he is not like some other guys who are born cheaters. I trust him a lot !! I love him and will love him forever.

but things are just not right between us these days. friends are his obsession! they are 1st. I cried and cried alot. it still hurts. i want to be his perfect girlfriend but i am failing.

last night, i was losing my mind. literally going insane. i was insulted and critisized in public. i cant move on... i want to break up but i cant. i am tied! The thought that I’ll be moving with my life without his care, and my heart torn into pieces. its bleeding...

i am weak.. i really am. i am hopeless and helpless...

it still hurts and hurting pain is wat kills me... i am going mentally ill and i hv no peace. i hv no one to turn to. i am alone..

time will heal..

For now, I am praying that God will give me enough strength and ease the pain.

Life sucks !

Life sucks.

Everything is so fucked up.

NO ONE understands.

NO ONE cares.

Parents are the most annoying creatures on earth!

and i hv a bf who shouts at me 24/7

NO one understands me but me!

ppl these days just dont seem to care.

selfish bastards!

i just hate life!

Fuck life!

i wanna live in a world of my own.

a world where dreams come alive

i wanna marry a frog

and live happily.

IPHONE !!

i am an iphone freak. so crazy over an iphone now! Damn myself! i am havin sleepless nights just thinking about an iphone. how i wish so hard i can own one on my own. Iphones are fine golds made in heaven. i am deeply in love with it.

i am in need of a iphone and i wil do whatever it takes to be an owner of one! like ive said a million times dreams should become reality. !!lol...

7th July 2010

you hv the power to hurt me.

you hv the power to kill me on the inside.

you hv the power to rip my heart into two and watch it bleed...

you hv the power to hold my heart in ur hands and stab it til it dies...

no matter hw intensely loved me, i just knew u were gonna hurt me real bad someday..

and...

2day is the day...

congrats, u succeded....

Many a time love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a teardrop.

but as for me....

our love faded to a point where he didnt want me anymore....

he decided to leave me ....

The pain i feel inside of me now is so intense..

i dont blame you for the pain...

its not ur fault sweetheart....

yes im hurt and im crying...

and there's a question to be answered..'why?'

you dont see my pain, dont you?

you dont feel my pain, dont you?

u just wanted to leave me 2nite...

wat abt the promises u made to me?

all the hopes u gv?

i often wonder wat went thru ur mind wen u was abt to do such a thing..

u were just so selfish..

u just wanted to end ur pain...

did u think abt ur family, ur loved ones?

did u even think of me and hw wud my life be without you? did you?

ans me b, u just dont love me anymore, dont you?

i am sitting here and crying...

asking myself this question..'why did u do it 2nite'

why b why?? it hurts b... im so hurt..

inside is bleeding....why wont u come comfort me??

i am living thru this hurt every single day of my life.

i need you b to ease this pain..its too intense...

the wound u caused tonight is too deep....

why did u behave so good to me when at the end of the day, u were gonna be rude?

why did u promise me ur life when u were gonna take it away from me 2nite?

why do u act so smart wen all in fact u were a retard.

why cant u see the pieces of my heart tat u hv shattered it on the ground?

why cant u feel my pain?

tears fell like raindrops 2day and hurt is all over my veins.

why did u wanted to leave me tonight?

i hv no hope but only tears tat drop...

i think of every lie tat u hv said...

u said u wanted to spend ur whole life with me.

u said u wanted to hv a family wit me..

u said u wanted to make cute cute babies wit me...

but the truth is, u didnt want...

u just wanted to see me bleed...

i gv u my heart, i gv u my soul..

i gv u every emotion of mine tat i cant control..

i am so caught up in all ur lies....

u wanted to leave me 2nite, tats the truth.

the damage u hv caused me, was fun for u..

the hurt u caused me, was hapiness and pleassure for u...

the only truth u ever told, i was something to let go.

you stole my heart...

please return in back...

those love words u told me, seems like it has lost its meaning.

you dont und wat it is like to be me.

all u cared for is for ur hapiness to grow...

i hv scars of u in my heart.

i hv no strength to carry on... i am like a wounded soldier...

i am in need of help.

how could u say u love me

but all u wanted to do is leave me 2nite

how cud u say u care

if ur nt gonna stay wit me til the end?

i wish it always rain

so u could nt see the hurt, pain and tears u gv me tonight

i cant find someone else like you.

all i want is you.

all i need is you...

love hurts...

Depths of my Love

Today i realised, ur my perfect love. When i fell in love with you, i want you to always be mine. In happiness, i want to smile with you. In sadness, i want to cry with you. In laughter, i wanna laugh with you. In everything i do, i wanna do it with you.. My heart breaks everytime we say goodbye.. and at the same time, my heart yearns for the next hello... you are an angel that cared for me like no other... when memory is all that remain, we cling on to it with strength.

Love is not a simple thing. It is based on trust , understanding , sharring each others happiness and pain. But for many, there comes a time where it must also be based on forgiveness. We are a perfect couple made in heaven. We have gone through ups and down together...

You are my only love. You have me completely in your power. I know and feel that if i am to write anything fine or noble in the future i shall do so only by listening to the doors of your heart... I love you deeply and truly. There is not a particle of love that is not yours. I just cannot live without you. You are my everything. You are someone who is very close to my heart. Im crazily in love with you.

I enjoyed every single moment spent with you... i treasure each and every second with you. All the crazy things we did 2gether wil nvr be forgotten. You brought me so much happiness... you brought my dreams to reality... and all i can say is thank you b..

Together forever....

♥ Friends ♥

Friends stay together
through good and through bad
Friends stay together
through happy and sad
Friends stay together
through break-ups and tears
Friends stay together
over the years
Friends stay together
when different or alike
Friends stay together
through pain and through strife
Friends stay together
no matter the cause
Friends stay together
just because
Friends stay together
through love and through hate
Friends stay together
through destiny and fate
Friends stay together
they're just always there
Friends stay together
because they care♥

What A Guy Wants

A guy wants the type of girl
That doesn't mind staying home
A guy wants a girl
He can call his own

He doesn't want a girl
Who will cheat
He doesn't want a girl
Who is cheap

He wants a girl
Who will be his best friend
He wants a girl
Who will love him to the very end

He wants a girl
Who he can depend on
He wants a girl
Who will tell him when he's wrong

A guy wants a girl
Who will never lie
Even if it means
One ends up crying

What a guy wants in a girl
Is passion and trust
But most of all
A guy wants to love and not to lust

A Girl Like Me

A girl like me will make your world better
A girl like me will make you happy
A girl like me will make you smile everyday.

A girl like me will surround only you in my world
A girl like me will make you laugh nonstop
A girl like me will make time for you.

A girl like me will sit and listen to your words
A girl like me will not play games with you or your heart
A girl like me will always be true to you.

A girl like me will talk to you all night
A girl like me will be the one you can count on to be there for you
A girl like me will always be down for you no matter what.

A girl like me will be the one you can put your trust in
A girl like me will make you my whole world
A girl like me will give you everything I possibly can.

A girl like me needs a king
A girl like me could be your queen
A girl like me could be your everything.

A girl like me will let you have fun
A girl like me will lay with you and just smile
A girl like me will be the one you can just hang out with.

A girl like me will be the one to hold you at night
A girl like me will be the one you can fall asleep with
A girl like me will make you see what's on the brighter side.

A girl like me will keep you outta trouble
A girl like me will be there when no one else will
A girl like me will be the one you can open up to.

A girl like me could be your world that you have been looking for
A girl like me could be right in front of you
A girl like me could be the one you need to survive this life.

A girl like me is me
There is no other girl like me
Take me to be yours and get all of the above.

'DEPRESSION Makes me.......'

Depression makes me feel pain
Depression makes me stupid
Depression makes me feel low
Depression makes me mad
Depression makes me sad
Depression makes me forget world
Depression makes me tensed
Depression makes me lose self control
Depression makes me hate everyone
Depression makes me think over and over
Depression makes me feel lonely
Depression makes me think wild
Depression makes me worthless
Depression makes me sick
What does Depression give me?
When it runs high…
It will make me Die - REST IN PEACE…

Take It Easy! ! ! !

Love and lust,
What you’ll vote?
I vote for love,
Lust I got.
I vote for lust,
Love I got.
Love is Love
And Lust is lust……
In the puzzlement
Lust and love I voted for both,
And I was disqualified!
I stopped voting now!
I take things as it comes!

Courage

Courage is what makes us
Courage is what divides us
Courage is what drives us
Courage is what stops us

Courage creates news
Courage demands more
Courage creates blame
Courage brings shame

Courage shows in school
Courage determines the cool
Courage divides the weak
Courage pours out like a leak

Courage puts us on a knee
Courage makes us free
Courage makes us plea
Courage helps us flee

Time

There's a time to love
And a time to hate
There's a time to go
And a time to wait

There's a time to follow
And a time to lead
There's a time to heal
And a time to bleed

There's a time to smile
And a time to frown
There's a time to build
And a time to tear down

There's a time to give
And a time to receive
There's a time to question
And a time to believe

There’s a time to stand
And a time to leap
There’s a time to plant
And a time to reap

There's a time to win
And a time to lose
There's a time to fear
And a time to choose

There's a time to land
And a time to fly
There's a time to live
And a time to die

Should we be Friends OR Lovers.

Are you ready for commitment?
This is the most important question you need to ask yourself. As friends you lead a carefree life and friendship doesn't involve responsibilities, expectations and commitments. If these added responsibilities and expectations are causing problems and apparently you spend more time arguing and fighting than loving, then its better you stick to being friends.

Your goals are completely different.
If you are ambitious and want to achieve a certain goal in your life but your partner is not then this might create lots of problems in your relationship which might lead to bitterness and despair. If that's a case in between you and your partner then its best if you go back to the friendship stage and remain friends forever.

Your moral values are different.
For a relationship to be successful it is very necessary that that you both have similar moral values. It is okay if your views, interests and hobbies are different and infact different points of view are often healthy for a relationship. However if your moral values are different then the differences as a result of that becomes a little too difficult to bridge.

Are you over-possessive?
If you are suffering from the syndrome called jealousy and over-possessiveness then it is advisable that you remain just friends. There are some women who become so possessive about their friends or partner that they cant tolerate him speaking to anybody. Also if you feel that your partner is jealous and possessive then its better that you don't indulge into a serious relationship with him to repent it later on.

Your relationship is purely sexual.
While sex is an essential and integral part of any relationship, a relationship built solely on sex is probably not going to last. Thus if you think that all that you do when you meet is indulge in sex then its better that you remain friends and not lovers.

My Princess ( His Story )

this is how the story goes...

well...this story is about a girl...

she's not an ordinary girl, she's my princess

ok well...this girl has got something really special in her...i have no idea what is it but that is what attracted me to her

ok...let me describe her in details..

she's 19 years old going on 20 this year...abt 5feet tall i guess(not sure)

not very thin and not very fat....she has a perfect body which every guys can get attracted to..

ok...let me start from her head right to her legs...

well...

she has syuperbly-well made or crafted face

her eyes, her nose, her ears, her pink lips and her eyebrows

everything really fits in perfectly

that makes a very beautiful and cute face

with that she has been embedded with beautiful and long hair

(so many times in my dreams i dreamt abt her hair)

so freaking nice.

you know she has this cute smile...

god...every time she smiles, it makes me go crazy

everything inside of me leaps with so much of joy

to conclude, she has a perfect face. cannot be compared to any other..

she's just unique...such a beautiful girl

ok now...to her body...

she has the most 'perfect-est' body of all the girls i've met

she has got the curve that makes most of the guys go CRAZEEEEEEEE !

well...i dont want to go very deep in details

for your own info...she's mine..

so i keep it all to myself...not telling anyone

hahaha

in conclusion...she has a well-curved and a sexy body....

any guy would want to have a girl like her...

but im just a lucky bastard...I GOT HER !!

hahaha

:D

well...im gonna jump straight to her legs now...

not gonna reveal abt anything in between her legs and body

(total privacy)

hahaha

ok well...

i havent really seen her legs before...

i mean in real life

but i did see her legs in one of her pics...and i have to say...

i was AMAZED at it !

it looked in the picture, she has a pretty legs..

it looked smooth...and her skin tone was awesome

it was really really so white

haha

i know some friends of mine...who admire a girl

*girl's legs

so...im sure if they were to see my princess's legs...hahaha

they will shower me with praises

haha

well...according to some people...if a girl has pretty legs...then..

she's surely one 'HOT CHICK'

so im glad that i've won the heart of a 'HOT CHICK'

:D:D:P

ok...lets continue..

nothing else to say la ...

lol

hmmm...

ok ok

from the legs...

i can say abt her feet...but i've never seen them...

so i dont really know la

so...thats it..

the conclusion...

my girlfriend is a hot chick !!!

:P:P

im lucky to have her...

ok...that was abt her physically..

now...characteristically...

she's such a sweetheart i tell you

she's the most amazing human i've ever met...

my life took a drastic change from the moment she stepped into my life

she brought so much of happiness

i cant even go on a day without talking to her...she has become that important to me

evryday im loving her more and more

you know...there's one thing abt her that i admire...

whenever she gets angry, irritated or depressed...

she loses control of her mind and herself

she'll say stuffs which are not supposed to be said

but she just wont care

I LOVE THIS THING ABT HER !

ermm...might sound stupid...but i really find it very sexy

hahaha

not all the girls can be like her

she's just so special

sometimes she can be very very childish...

but still i LOVE it !

i might get irritated sometimes...but deep inside im loving it

i love seeing her face when she's angry...

all of a sudden, she becomes so beautiful !

erm...there;s alot of things to say abt her la...

but i choose not to say coz its private

so yeah...

TOTAL CONCLUSION :

My girlfriend is a hot chick. She's a sweetheart, a good person. So loving and cares for me alot. And also, she's a clown. My baby pig !! I love this pig so much !

THE END

Parents VS Teenagers

( this is my real life story, not created..... because im lost and i just do not knw what to do but to write them down instead...no one will understand hw i feel and what im going thru until and unless u step in my shoes!!! )

The question

The primary job as parents is to keep their youngsters safe. Are they permitted to “snoop” on them in order to protect them from harm? Should parents read their teens diaries, listen to their phone conversations, and check their email log and stalk on their facebook?

The Court Case

Before this questions can be answered, parents should be aware of their legal rights. Dear parents, ur not dealing with kids but ur dealing with teenagers!!

Parent : Will we get into trouble for performing our parental duty?

the teenager would answer, well, it depends on how u handle ur parental duty.

Parent : Are there limits to our parental prerogative?

The teenager would answer, is that even a question, lol !!

The Debate

Situation : My daughter doesn’t talk to me. If I ask her about her school, she says ‘its fine’. She is very irritable , she spends most of her time in her room, listening to songs, hanging on the internet, and most of the time on the phone. She does not respond properly when I ask her certain questions and sometimes she acts in a very strange way. But im happy, she still stays at home.

Parents are in agony when left in the dark about a teens activities. Who knows what she is doing! Is she involved with the “wrong” type of peer group? Is she hurting herself by engaging in behavior that is dangerous, either physically or emotionally, or illegal? What is a parent to do?

On the one hand, maybe we should just control our anxious thoughts and feelings. After all, we parents recognize our teenagers’ desire for privacy. They need time to be alone, space for their possessions, and the knowledge that we won’t pry into their lives. We want to have a relationship of trust and respect with them. We also want them to become increasingly independent so that they may be prepared for adulthood. If we control their lives too much we might impair their decision-making ability and hinder them from attaining the self-confidence to make the important decisions that lie ahead.

The key problem

She is in a relationship with this guy. She sees future with him. Parents are obviously against it. That’s when, hell starts!

The reality

In my case, my parents snoop over me all the time.. I’m a teen , 19 going on 20. Yet, they control my life to the max. I had no privacy at all till I had to hv double security code in my phone, my diary had to be thrown, my messages must be kept locked in a private folder. What makes it even worse, my phone has to be in my pocket 24/7. I just cant seem to be open to my parents. Gap has been created. Now, whats the solution??

My mother shouts at me all the time. She doesn’t understand how I feel. She misunderstands me all the time, she controls my life like no other. She’s allergic to see guys around me. Now, she has instill a fear in me which is hard to describe. On the other hand, I hv a dad who listens to my mom a million percent. No doubt, he is not strict at all..but somehow I cannot reach him as well… What should I do?

The Expected Convo

The girl : dad, we need to talk.

Dad : yes girl, what is it?

The girl : well dad, I hv something on my mind that is bothering me. I cant eat, I cant sleep, I cant study, I just cant do anything but to feel depressed.

Dad : ok, what is it? Tell me whats ur prob.

The girl : ok. Im in a relationship with this guy whom I love.

Dad : so, what are u trying to say now?

The girl : im trying to say that I want some space .. to spend time with him when im back.

Mom interrupts

Mom : Is it very important for u to be in a relationship right now? Cant u get ur priorities right? Why are my girls always so interested in getting into a relationship. Guys are just making use of u’ll and u girls are being so stupid and cheap!!

The girl : is falling in love a crime?

Dad & mom : ur being very disobedient. U are not honouring ur parents. Ur going against ur parents and this is not the way u shud talk to ur parents.

The girl : but the guy is a Christian, a good guy, a future pilot, and his family has accepted me. Why cant u’ll accept him?

Dad : well, u tell me ..who doesn’t want their daughter-in-law to be a future doctor?

The girl : that’s not the point here.

Dad : then wats the point?

The girl : why are u not approving of my relationship.

Dad : Because at the moment, its not important. Just look at the louis’s children.

The girl : *what the fuck face*

Dad : that’s why I say u’ll are being very disobedient to ur parents.

The girl : *loses her temper* and says…well, now u knw, why we cant be open to u’ll..

Dad : U shud knw hw to set ur priorities right.

The girl : I knw hw to set my priorities right. U just don’t understand hw I feel.

Dad : same goes here…

Th girl : i am tryin to put forth my problems and not hide anything from u.. in return, this is what i get. nw u knw, why we hide stuffs from both u and mummy.

(Conversation goes no where.. it ends up with arguments and its left abruptly….)

The conclusion

Dear teens, if u are facing the exact same thing im feeling…then its high time we teens rebel.. this is to teach our parents a lesson and see hw they react to it.. because of my parents over protection, im going thru a lot of depression and heartaches. So yeah, this is not the life I want to live. Live is short. We should be happy and live life to the fullest.

Dear parents, please don’t be too over protective over ur teens… For gods sake, they are no longer babes.. they hv grown up and they know wat is right for them. If u support them, they will turn to u no matter what happens, even in their darkest hour. They would be open to u and there will not be a generation gap. And most of all, they would not go on lying to u!!!

ATTITUDE !!

Attitude is more important than facts

It is more important than the past, than education than money, than circumstances, than failures, than success.

than wat other people think or say or do.

It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill.

It will make or break a company, a home and even a relationship.

The remarkable thing is we hv a choice , everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace or the other day.

We cannot change our past,

We cannot change the fact that other people will act in a certain way.

We cannot change the inevitable.

The only thing we can do is play on the string we hv, and that is our attitude.

I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and the remaining 90% is how i react to it.

MUMMY

My mother is unique

My mother is one of a kind

She is sweet and

she loves me like no other,

She is gentle and kind

She is there when i need her...

My mother is beautiful

my dad is lucky he got her...

My mother is smart and

she's good at words..

Mummy, i love you for all that u hv done for me

u cared for me like no other...

and the sacrifices u made for me..

i appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.

Though my mother can be mad at times,

i wud still love her.

though she can be annoying at times,

i wud still love her.

though she can get on my nerves at times,

i wud still love her.

My mother is a special gift.

a gift from God.

i wud be lost and lonely without her.

Thank you God,

for giving me such a wonderful mother.

Dear Mummy,

although im not here with you 2day to celebrate mothers day with you,

im nt there to buy u flowers...

but i wud still celebrate mothers day with you from afar...

u are always in my heart...

Mummy, i love you..

sincerely written by a wonderful daughter,

Jessica

Fights !

Why do couples fight so much over stupid, lame things?

Well, lately i hv been experiencing too much of fights in my relationship. Almost every alternate days, we wud hv a fight. Fights are usually about something much deeper then what it may seem. It can range from either misunderstanding, miscommunication, immaturity level, either one being inconsiderate or insecure of the other. As for me, i find it rather strange and weird why two people who is so in love still fight all the time, hurt each other, etc etc... it doesnt make any sense to me but it does happen all the time in my relationship

someone actually asked this ques : why do couples fight all the time? and the answer given was, " Because they have a dead relationship that is going nowhere, the love is gone, so might as well fight like crazy." but this doesnt apply to me and my relationship. because in my relationship, the love grows instead, then why fight.. ???

You know, i hv been arguing alot lately with my boyfriend over stupid little things. Its a shame to knw that we both love each other, yet fight all the time. I just cant figure out why we're arguing about stupid, lame stuffs. I just need a solution to overcome this. someone help. i need answers...

My boyfriend feels so insecure about me. and i just dont knw why. as far as im concern. i've done nothing in the world to instill such a feeling within him. he is just so allergic to see guys around me. as if, they gonna steal me away from him. tat aint gonna happen in a million years.. i need to eradicate this feeling away from me... can someone tell me how, what do i need to do.. i need logic, rational answers...

although we fight, hurt each other like anything...but deep inside me, i love him more then anything.. he is the one for me, my prince. just cant imagine what life would be without him. no prince=no life !! and therefore, i would sacrifice anything in the world in order to keep this relationship going...

Discussion Buddies !!

The hardest thing to do right now in my life is to wake up early in the morning and go for class... its freaking hard and irritating!!! but i hv no choice but to get my ass out of bed and go for class because 'theres no cheating in attendance list when it comes to discussion time' LOL !!

So yeah, as usual, i had to force myself out of bed this morning... took a quick shower, got dressed up, no breakfast and off i went for classes. I went into my discussion room and sat down... Thank God, the lecturer was not in yet coz i am always late... however, my discussion buddies is kinda fun...and tats wat that keeps my group interesting... thanks to Losine, Izzul, Yoges and Vinoth... you guys are simply my most awesome'est discussion buddies...

While waiting for the lecturer, we were talking nonsense ... wat wud my 21st birthday party be like?? i was like...erm, i wud hv a fun one and all my buddies wud be invited... maybe it wud be in the bar... hahah.... The damn lecturer nvr came. Hw frustrating it was! i cud hv spent my precious time sleeping at home.. DAMN!

Then, at 10am was the normal lectures..As usual, BORRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! somhow i just forced myself to concentrate and prevented my mind from swaying idle.. thank god, the class ended early.. i suppose god answered my prayers... Amen!!

Now im back home, blogging, and my bed is calling me....it wants to seduce me i guess.. Bed, im coming for you now... muahxxx... Good nights....zzZZZzzzzZzz....

Papa, I Love You

This story is dedicated specially to my dad...

I thank God for giving me such a wonderful dad.. and i am so happy to be his little girl...and i will always be my dad's little girl despite my growing age. Dad, I Love You are three words thats on my mind right now... i hv been thinking of you the whole day and i miss you...

Today i just realized just how much of sacrifices you hv made to bring me this far... Dad, ur my unique handsome daddy that God has given me and although sometimes i hv been ur naughty little girl, but somehow i want u to knw that i nvr ever meant to dissapoint you and make u sad in any way...

I hear so many stories of young children losing their dad at young age.. and i imagine hw wud life be without a dad in the family... it hurts me a lot and sometimes i feel so helpless and there's just about nothing i can do but to shed tears for those unlucky kids. the recent events of hearing many kids losing their dad has caused such a great impact on my life. Dad, hw i wish u were here. I need a hug from you.

I still remember and think of all the sacrifices u did just to bring me thus far. when i was in upper secondary , u were willing to take up a hse just for me so tat i wud nt hv to travel far tat wud only cause me tiredness... instead, u took the pain by travelling every single day... i still remember the nites tat u wud come back late from work, despite the tiredness and exaustion , u wud still stay up wit me to teach me add maths and physics... u were my best physics and add maths teacher... i still remember the knockings i used to get from u when i am nt able to ans the add maths questions...

Papa, i still remember the advices u used to give me abt relationships in the car when u wud pick me up from school...u used to tell me that i was too young to be in a relationship...yes, i agreed wit u at that point of time.. nw, i'm gonna be 20. Am i still too young to be in a relationship?

Dad, u love mummy even though sometimes she can be very irritating... u hv given me a perfect family and i am so lucky to be born in this family... Dad, u are a perfect example on hw a dad should be. A dad without any flaws...

Now im in a foreign country... i promise you dad, that i will become a successful doctor one day. I will marry the guy u choose coz i knw u wil choose the perfect n right guy for me. i will make u proud and i wud nvr wanna see u sad for any reason...

sincerely written by,

Jessica

Strange Events

hahahaha...i just wanna laugh out loud ( LOL ) !!!

These strange events are awkwardly strange. And its all happening one after another. Pure weirdness, tats all i can say! its concerning abt my 3 dumb and useless ex's i had! yesterday, all of a sudden my 3rd ex came back all of a sudden , asking abt me to my fren, saying stuffs tat he misses me and he regret wat he did to me...he adds me on fb again, thinking of reconnecting with me back...he did tell me during the break up tat he'll come back to me after a year and nw its gonna be a year ever since we broke up and maybe he wants me back. huh, maybe his feelings for me nvr really died...he did keep his promise after all...i suppose the memories and the things we did together kept him going....

then again, my 1st bf , all of a sudden , resurrected from the dead i guess, started a chat wit me last nite.. he did give me a shock, YEAH! i thought he forgot me but seems like NO!! i was his 1st ever girl he fell in love wit, vice versa. and maybe thats why he is still single until now..Gosh, it has been yrs since we parted , and yet he has not moved on.... sometimes, i still wonder wat went wrong between us...he was a perfect guy wit no flaws..a christian guy some more who truly cared for me... it all started in a youth camp...haizzz...memories, memories, memories.... maybe i was too young at tat point of time, only 13....so yeah, i just didnt knw hw to handle a relationship....nt my fault!!

now the 3rd event is extremely strange! this is concerning my 2nd exbf! LOL! he was one asshole that i hated most... 2days ago, he wanted to start a video cal wit me in YM! i was so shock and i ignored his cal.. he is one bastard i truly hate... i hated him more then i actually loved him. memories of him only disgusts me !! ah, i hate him so much..and i so wish him dead!

i seriously hv no idea wat these three dumb asses are up too....but one thing's for sure, they lost in this game of love and there's no turning back, no 2nd chances!!

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the girl gives him her heart....its fragile and she trust him tat he will handle it wit care..

he crashes it...

its broken, shattered into a million pieces...

and then he says this to her...

"eh, it was worthless anyways"

he turns his back and walks away from her...

she cries all alone as the pain is too intense to bear..

QUIET EMOTIONS...

Like any other kind of love, friendship can be a lost in our lives due to neglect, misunderstandings, anger or sometimes, simply circumstances... however, it is lost, we lose apart of ourselves that can nvr be quite recovered...wat more if its someone who's so close to our hearts....

I have this friend..that treats me really good at first and then leaves me all of a sudden... she left me in a shock state...and im still sitting here wondering whether is all this merely a dream or am i hallucinating stuffs... its hard to accept the fact that she's no longer here, she's gone...

whenever i needed someone to talk to

you were always there

when my eyes filled with tears, my heart filled with pain

you were always there

there was no time when i had doubt

to come to you

because u were always there for me

i cud see tat u really wanted to help because u cared for me like no other

whenever i was down n blue

u were always there

so happy to hv u as my fren

no matter wat my problems may be or no matter wat went wrong

you were always there

now ur gone

i close my eyes and think of the good times we shared

the memories we had

its hard to take

maybe one day u might come back...

but this is only wat i cud wish...

As time flew

i saw our frienship fading, and my heart grew sick

today the day had arrived

when it was time to say goodbye

but u left without even saying goodbye

i was shock, still shock!!

no one to turn to for help...

now i sit alone in my room

thinking of wat went wrong

and hw to do it all over again

but one thing i knw, there's nothing tat can be changed

its hard to take...

i nvr thought i wud see this day

i nvr wanted things to turn out this way

im left with emptiness

you were like my sister, so much more

i miss you, where did u go??

why must u leave??

its hard to take....

friendship is a very special thing

fragile at times

easily broken

and not ez to mend

confusion , pain , unanswered questions..u just left...

its hard to take...

our friendship was intact

but the time has come to an end

im so confused...

ur gone

and the pages of time, u cant turn back

in this heart breaking moment

just remember, even theres distance between us,

i always cared for u...

and i am still someone who still cares...

left all alone,

sincerely written by,

Jessica

I'm Guilty...

Oops...

i made a mistake... a very severe one this time..

i am regretting it so bad...and i just do not know what to do...

i am a statue that bleeds now...

my cold heart beats vitally.... its like having angina..i need beta blockers!!

i talk to him a lot..

which makes it harder you see...

we are like close friends these days..

i know it will break ur heart...

but baby, i swear im doing it with no intentions..

my heart is pure, and my love for you is real...

it kills me inside..

but i cant tell you anything..

oh God, i cant take this anymore...

maybe i should tell you the truth...

coz i knw it will soon leak...

my conscience is guilty

my lies , i will not be able to hide for long

there's a deep dark truth tat u must never know

hidden secrets, truths untold, eats away my soul...

in time i will lose control..

and i will confess each and every secret to you...

i must have cried a million times of being in this life

thats why i have tear stains in my heart..

i pray someday u will understand me

and take me back to be with you forever...

without you, im lost...im lonely..

i love you so much, it hurts inside..

i need your guiding hands...

im a wandering , lost girl..

im neither here nor there..

to tell u the truth, my heart is cold and empty...

im so confused...

is fate gonna be kind to us??

i wanna justify myself

and say what i did was right..

i did not french kiss him or watsoever...

but NO...

i agree a million percent that what i did was so wrong,

i consider it a crime...

and it broke ur heart into a million pieces...

i knw its not gonna be ez for u to 4get

but i am willing to go on my knees to beg for forgiveness...

it is not ez to earn tat forgiveness and trust back

i have hurt you so badly...

i just dont knw wat to do...

when reality and fantasy meet,

the result is love..

searching for tat fantasy will lead u only to many dissapoinments

im an imperfect person

but im willing to go tat extra mile to change for u..

to correct myself, to be with you

just because i hv loved you so deeply...

when i fell in love with you,

i wanted to be with you always..

but fate is cruel..

the distance separated us...

my heart would yearn for the very moment u say 'hello'

and i'll miss u crazy the moment u say a 'goodbye'

when i fell in love with you,

all my old hurts and pain seem lost and faded away..

i want you to be happy always,

i wanna see tat cute smile on ur face,

but ...

i seem to be hurting you day in day out...

u dont deserve any of this

i curse myself,

i dont know what to do..

i need help...

God, it hurts so much to see the person i love so much in pain

there's a million of things running thru my mind abt you..

but i just cant speak it out..

so i write them down instead...

( im writing this down with tears in my eyes, so hurt and i hv no one to turn to )

i always asked myself ,

when i fall in love, hw wud i feel?

i ask this question to myself countless times

and even now when im writing this down,

i cant help but reflect on those times when i fell in love so madly, fondly and blindly!!

i cud still remember hw my first love proposed to me, so sweet and so real..

i cud still remember my first hug, my first kiss, my first ....

everything was so real...

but in the end, i was stabbed on the heart and left to bleed to death...

as time passed, i asked myself,

why love when i knw its gonna hurt ??

till now i hv no answer to this question...

love is such a strong word

a word people often misuse

something that they can take for granted

my wounds are deep

why wont u understand and love me for who i am??

you deserve the best in everything u do,

maybe someday i will see you, with a smile on your face,

hand in hand with somebody new,

until that day comes i will still be here,

i will be ur angel, ur fallen angel...

i will look out for you when u need someone,

i will not let you down again...

forgive me if i do, because im not perfect,

i love you now and always will...

i want you to be mine forever...

i dont wanna handle another broken heart...

b, its too painful..why wont u hear me???

why does love hurt so much?

why must i go thru it over and over again??

why cant life be like candy, so sweet and nice??

why cant life distribute pain more equally among many people, not just concentrate on one person??

LIFE IS UNFAIR!!

i want to say sorry for the many things tat is unsaid..

i want to be forgiven and forgive myself as well

thoughts of u brings warmth to me and tat will nvr change...

please knw the fact tat i truely cared and loved you..

damage has been done..

and i hate my soul so much!

im in my own sea of darkness..

God help me for i have sinned...

baby,

please hold me close and never let me go...

i hv been too lonely...

i just dont knw hw else to explain myself...

but one thing i do knw,

i nvr evr wanted to hurt you...

i just love you so very much...

believe me when i say i love you because i really do....

i wanna speak to you..

but to tell u the truth..

im too weak to do so...

im trying hard to get things right between us...

but its hard...

sometimes i pretend like everythings fine,

but deep down im crying...

please do not look into my eyes and tell me u love me..

i would die if u were to do it...

because I do not deserve anything from u...

maybe u might as well do watever ur two frens said..

ignore me for sometime...

yeah, dont worry about me...

i'll be fine...

i wanna end this long and confusing note...

but the pain in me is still not subsiding...

maybe i might wanna ease myself with razor blades!!

im just so hurt..and i hv no one to turn to...

loneliness hurts ...!!

tears of the broken heart,

written by,

JESSICA

Story Of My Life...

Ok.

My name is Stanley Paul.

I'm 20years old.

I have an amazing girlfriend named Jessica.

I love her very much and I know that she loves me too.

But for some time now...

my girlfriend and I...

were going through a rough patch.

we both were 'sometimes' very mean to each other

i was so afraid

that i might lose her

yeah

but

we loved each other so much...

where we cant be separated for any reasons

so we were sorry for everything that has happened

atleast all the bad things that hurt me were gone

:D

as i said..

we're going through a rough patch at the moment

im hoping that things will be fine soon

and

we'll be stronger together then ever

she means everything in the world to me

after 20yrs of my life..

i met the right girl for me

and i still rmb

the moment my eyes met hers

i knew i wanted her to be mine forever.

i gave her my heart..

my whole heart actually

she'll be the first and the last girl in my life

i mean it

in the past few days...

no...4days ago

someone asked me a question

how much i really love her?

i said confidently...

that i love her with all my heart...

she means everything to me

then...

that same person asked me another question...

would you give up anything for her?

i bravely said 'YES'

then...

the same person again asked me one more question...

this time it left me stuttering

he asked me...

would you give up yr flying dream if she asks you to?

i was blank!

speechless!

i had no answer

but

i still love her

after that...

i had been thinking alot abt her..

more than i think about newer aircrafts

yeah

i had this gut feeling

so

i called this same person a few days later...

and

i gave him my answer for his question

he was surprised

shocked i would say

well...

i told him that

yes, i love her so much!!

she's the only one whom i want to spend my entire life with

i said...

she understands me well...

so..

i told him

if she was to ask me to not pursue with flying dreams...

i would do what she says.

coz

now

she's the most important thing in my life

then...

comes the flying

but i'm hoping that she wont do it

yeah

i love her so much!

really really so much!

i just cant explain or describe

how much i love her

she's everything to me now

right now...

i've only got two things to achieve in life

first,

to become a pilot

second,

to be with her for my entire life

to keep her happy

and to put a smile on her face

-THE END-

p/s : he told me this story....

Church and Me

OK...

Why im not going to church these days??

i used to be so holy...

the 1st thing that i wud do when i wake up in the morning is to read the bible and pray..

but not anymore!!

what has happened to tat holy girl...??

well...

things hv changed in me...

i dont wanna be a hypocrite...

the nite before sunday...i do unholy stuffs...

so why go the church the next day?? pretend like nothings wrong!!

i dont wanna fake things...

i am me..and tats it!

im emotionally unstable...

im mentally retarded...

im physically screwed up..

and my soul is lost...

people are taking control of my life toooooooooo much!!

and i hate it...

ppl tell me wat i shud do and wat i shud nt do...

come on, wat the hell!!

the more u control, the more i'll rebel!

i want to be happy...

be happy like everyone else...

i wanna live a life that is pleasing to others...

but circumstances and temptation are just too great to resist!!

then it comes to subjects!!

its getting crazier and crazier!!

being in a medical field is no joke i tell ya!!

from microbiology to parasitology..

from parasitology to bacteriology...

from bacteriology to virology...

from virology to immunology...

all of these in a week!! its driving me nuts!!

next comes to a very complicated relationship!!

i hv no idea wats wrong wit me and my relationship..

its getting too complicated...

theres misunderstandings every single day without fail..

wat the hell is happening??

im beginning to think whether is it gonna last or is it gonna end up like any other..

but i swear, i really loved him so much...

then it comes to my parents..

always nagging at me all the time...

its so sickening....

so annoying and irritating!!

all these pent up anger and frustrations are really making me go insane..

i just need time...

coz time will heal...

Something's Wrong!!

Somethings wrong with me..

i have nvr experienced difficulties in waking up every morning...

but recently, im finding it very hard...

even 2day, i overslept...

damn, i missed another class!!

wats happening to me??

wats going on??

i need help!!!

I'm Sorry...

Im taking this time to write down this sorry note to apologize what i hv done to him....this might not make any sense to him..but what i've got to say and write here is directly from my heart....

i never meant to hurt you like the way i always do...

please forgive me for the pain i hv caused you...

being in love is an awesome feeling tat anyone cud ever hv..

but sometimes there will be pain and heart breaks that comes along with it...

life is not always a bed of roses...

but still, i never meant to hurt you...

it is happening every single night...

hurt again and again....

i am so sorry what i spoke to you last night...

what i said was insensitive and hurtful...

i promise u i am working on wat i shud say and wat i shud not...

you dont deserve this kind of behavior from me...

you deserve to be happy...

you only deserve someone who can make u happy...

i know u probably might think im one hell of a useless being..

good for nothing...

only good for causing u pain...

but....

i swear to u tat i had no intentions of saying those stuffs to you...

it might take awile for u to understand me...

but...

i will wait....

i miss spending time wit you....

i miss you so much...

Will u find a place in ur heart to forgive me??

i dont want things to keep going wrong between us...

why must love always come wit pain???

this is one thing tat i will never understand till the end...

please someone explain this to me...

why must there be hurts in a relationship??

im sorry for being so emotional

im sorry for being so possessive over you coz ur mine forever..

im sorry tat i cry for you...

im sorry because i cant live without you...

im sorry for the tears you shed..

im sorry for the damaged tat i hv caused..

im sorry for making u so sick of this relationship

im sorry i hurt you deep...

im sorry for this selfish love..

im sorry for not caring enough..

im sorry for my restlessness...

im sorry for giving you sleepness night...

im sorry for each and every fight...

im sorry for the missing harmony in our relationship...

im sorry ur so sad coz of me..

sorry for not giving u any hapiness...

sorry because its my disgrace..

im sorry for thinking of u so very much

im sorry for being so crazy over you...

im sorry for being so immature...

im sorry for being me...

im sorry for i hv failed to make u happy in this relationship..

im sorry and sorry again...

im sorry of being insane...

but believe me i still love you so very much...

should i say sorry for tat too????

healing the hurt....????

can someone tell me how....