The Perfect Boyfriend

He calls her every single day and calls her back even when she hangs up
He hugs her when she is down and tells her everything is going to be alright
He tells her she is the most importand thing in his life and means every word of it
he wipes her tears away and makes her feel complete and secure
he lets all his frens knw that she is the most beautiful girl in his life
he doesnt mind giving up his favorite tv show or miss his best friends party just to spend time with her
he holds her hands and walks with her in the rain
he tells her every moment that he loves her and never gets bored of telling it over and over again
he kisses her when she is angry and immediately the problems go away
he looks her in the eye and tell her how much she means to him
he pledges to marry her and her alone
he is willing to do anything just to catch a glimpse of her when she is far away
he waits all night with her when she is studying for an important exam the next day
he encourages her not to give up when all else seems frail
he understands how she feels when shes not saying a word
he vows never ever to let her go
he never hurts her, he never makes her cry , he never betrays her
he is the perfect boyfriend

Too bad for us girls, he doesnt exist..

Love and Friendships

When you stop believing in love because of a broken heart, its often hard to start over without having remnants from the past. However, when you meet someone that pulls at your heart strings and knows you better then yourself, you start to question where were you and where you are heading...
 
After being hurt for a a very long time, I just didnt know how to love again... I didnt want to love again.. He was my friend and we were friends for a long time.. And now im falling for him.. Im writing this because he showed me happiness and laughter in the phase of misery..

Honestly, i had shut the door to my heart, I didnt wanna let anyone in anymore.. I had trusted and loved only to be hurt. I locked the door to my heart and tossed the key hard and as far as i could..

Then he came into my life and changed my mind.. He showed me what was possible when it seemed so hard at first.. He was always there when i needed comfort..He knew my pain..He saw right through my heart that i was broken...He patiently listened to me and sometimes i would just vent my anger on him..

When he confessed exactly how he felt about me... i realised that some people just love you for who you are.. Ever since then, i have been holding my heart not to break in his presence. I couldnt afford to lose this friendship.. But lately, i caught myself swimming in his eyes , so lost in his presence...I was already replacing friendship with love...

I cannot be myself around him anymore.. I cannot love completely with this broken heart... Im so lost and i dont knw what to do.. I just cant stop thinking about you..


Sincerely,
Jessica

We built it up, to watch it fall..

I cant hate you anymore - Nick Lachey

This song is dedicated to that one person whos no longer in my life..

You fucked up my life. Made it impossible to trust anybody. You were my entire life. I hate you and love you at the same time. This is the end of us. Im just sick of being led around in circles. You ruined us and im done fighting. I gave and gave the best of me but couldnt give you what u need. I never knew that until now..Therefore im letting go of everything we were but it doesnt mean it doesnt hurt.. 

I just cant hate you anymore,

Jessica

Confession

I have been a slave to Love for the past 35 months.. I was tied up in chains and there was no escape..Finally, i managed to break free... You were the boy who made me feel loved but that was prior before everything got so screwed up. My happiness with you became a temporary feeling. I had been making excuses for you for the past 35 months thinking you were the perfect one..But now its all bullshit.

I cant revolve around my life around someone who im just an option to. I have learnt throughout all of this, i may not be as mature but im sure as hell deserve better then you.
This guy came into my life when me and my ex started drifting apart till we broke up. This guy is hot, tall and sweet .. a charm..I felt so taken for granted and under appreciated when i was with my ex..But now i have someone who treats me like a princess.  I feel so free and confident..

Someone once told me, he is not worth your time and your tears. Why should you spend your time sitting at home bawling your eyes out wondering where he is and who is he with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you. Of course NO. The fact that he is falling in and out of love with other girls. Screw him and his girlfriend. When he finally sees you with some other guy whos not him , your boyfriend holding you so close, the girl of his dreams. He will realise the huge mistake when he let you go. So dont go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get. Or that IM he will never send because he likes to ignore you.. He pretends not to see you online because he know its gonna affect you. It will hurt when you see her name in his profile and how much he is in love with her. Knowing youre not the girl who makes him smile. Knowing your not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing he has already deleted the albums of pictures of you. Sooner you will realise that he is no longer is the person you'll call when your upset. You will also realise he is no longer the one who puts a smile on your face. And finally you'll realise your heart no longer belongs to him but someone elses..


Confession of the heart,
Jessica.