EVIL ME!!!

I love what im doing all nite...

it feels good...

the feeling is awesome...

its like havin sex with someone...

hahahaha...

the evil me, no one should ever know....

i love myself more then anything....

MAD WOMEN!!!

I’m sick and tired of this mad women at home… Now im re-thinking again and again whether or not i should specialize in the heart or specialize in treating mental patients!! In another words, Cardiologist or Physiatrist ??? This women at home is really getting out of hand, out of mind!!!!

I just feel like “getting lost” for good.. everything I do I wrong…!! She gives me hell!!! She gives me misery!!! She’s allergic when she sees guys around me….( as if she nvr dated anyone when she was a teen )…

Well… if you really don’t want any male human beings in my life, then I guess I’ll hv to come up with a new New Year Resolution..how about turning into a les??? Wow!!! Tat’s gonna be fun indeed…!!!

And I swear I aint coming home for the next holidays ever again and so on… Im goin back this Sunday and it’s a BYE for good!!!

BETRAYED FRIENDSHIP...

i write this poem down as there is a time in my life where i was faced with the reality that people are not who they seem to be... Specifically this poem reflects a particular friend that i had been so close but now so far... A person who caused a lot of heartache for me... Our friendship can never be mended after what you have said and after what you have done to me...

YOU ARE THE FRIEND WHO WAS NEVER A FRIEND...!!!!

Do you still remember?

when it was just me and you...

we trusted each other with anything...

the best that friends could be..

The bad times came and went...

we went through them strong...

u gave me ur shoulder to lean on...

u made me 4get my pain...

your relationship with me turned sexual...

everything u say and do disgust me...

i only wanted to be your good friend..

but you wanted more then that...

you very well knew i was taken..

yet u say stuffs to trigger my emotions...

And then i started drinking..

i didnt treat you like i should..

i thought you would understand me..

instead you misunderstood me...

depression then over took me...

coz u always begged me to be single...

u said my love for him isnt true...

and that u wanted me to go through another break up...

you said you wanted to kiss..

but i know ur thoughts are not right...

so how can i still be your friend..

you ruined everything...

it hurts as i think ...

and it bleeds as i care...

Now i hv to tell you whats on my mind...

i do not trust you at all...

and i would never wanna be anywhere near you anymore...

i would only stay sincere and faithful to only one person...

and you very well knew that i had always loved him with all my heart..

because of you...

i have hurt him...

because of you...

i have caused him pain...

and now the damaged done cannot be repaired...

because of you...

i have no courage to face him...

because of you...

i have sleepless nites...

because of you...

i feel like a fool...

because of you...

i blame myself for everything...

but i will never shed a single drop of tears for you...

all because : YOUR NOT WORTH ANYTHING TO ME ANYMORE...

Ungrateful swine..!!!

You are such an ungrateful retarded swine...

and i wish u will rot in hell 4 eternity till ur soul burns to death..

never in my life i hv seen or come across such people like you..

yet i will nvr 4get you..coz u hv brought so much of pain , misery and heartaches in my life..

everthing i did 4u is in vain..

u dont appreciate anything

i hv had many sleepless nites just 4u..to satisfy ur need.. and all i get is a bullshit on my face..

u gv me idiotic results, a fucking E...

my shoe almost flew on ur face!!

and u made me cry in the dark..

yet, i endured it...

i spoke to u like my darling...

i answered every single ques u brought forth...

some werent ez...

yet..i did it..all 4u....

nw im here and ur there...

and u want me to come there so badly ...

just to see ur face...

just to get ur ugly signature ...in order to continue my next sem..

and i am on my knees pleeding to u...coz i really cant come...

yet u wouldnt understand...

i am willing to sacrifice everything but why do u tell me all this at the last moment!!

Now u want me to write a love letter for you..

a letter to apologize...

well...i'll do it...

i will write it...ESP 4U...

and i will mean every single word in it...

and after doing so...

i swear i''ll throw the bloody letter on ur stinking face...

i just feel like burning down the parasitology department because ur in it!!!

trust me Prof Dr. dr Teguh Wahju..

i just hate u so very much...