7 November

This day last year was a very painful day to remember .... It was a day where i lost a friend , a brother ...that morning we sat in circle with our clicks , eating and laughing .. little did i knw it was our last meal together .. that afternoon we had discussion .. we were in different groups . usually in the afternoon , the moment my discussion ended i would straight away rush home . it didnt matter whether it was raining or stormy or sunshine or even tsunami !!! but tat day was different .. i decided to wait .. it was unusual of me but i just waited in the round circle ... and even after u came out , we were laughing n chit-chatting on what to get for our frens upcoming bithday .. i still remember u wanted to get her a dress in order to look more lady-like.. i guess it was the rain who kept us there that day ... Finally it was time to leave .. i said goodbye gave u a hi5 and left .. That was the last time seeing you alive :'(

That afternoon was dull ... a sense of loneliness ive never felt before ... the day was no longer right to me ... i received the call at 8 .... i was petrified and i couldnt believe what i heard !! i immediately got in a cab .. and i was wishing all the way that it was a dream .. i wanted to see you ... you were there wen i arrived but the police had sealed the area by then n ambulance came ... i was crying so much ... you left us without saying goodbye .. why did you go when you said ull be always there for us when we needed someone :'(

i saw u the next afternoon , after the autopsy .. i held your hand .. it was cold ..so cold ... nothing  was ever the same after that ... i am independent now ... i hv no one to turn to wen im down .. theres no more laughter in the air .. if only these tears could build a stairway to heaven and bring you back :'( :'( :'(